First of all thank you for taking heed to my current contingencies, yes not one not two several. Having born in India and raised for 25 years I feel , half of me is compressed by the social framework . I did not get sufficient opportunities to explore the inner self. If music was innate to me, how did I fail to discover when I was young or during school days, the years when the inherent talents are explored and disseminated to something deeper. Another frontal is , I just failed to make friends in my life. I am leo born and moon is my ascendant so as to say, I am a Piscean moon. These are just polar opposite signs and me under this influence , its like having myriad personalities. Moon denotes the innerself ,its all about human compassion , feeling for fellow beings, so deep and passionate. For me anything that appeals to my senses be it the art, music , literature draws me in completely. Yes earning the daily bread is just one part of it. How soothing would it would have been to subordinate in an environment that’s so pristine, earthy and that’s in sync with my soul. I always feel that I should be driven by passion not by artificial external forces. Where my tempestuous abilities and skills are brought to the forefront and I execute them with precision and the result which is gratifying and which drives my independence , independence of thoughts, tasks , lifestyle and fiscal. How I wish I was the best without the need to detest what I am doing, confronting aliens to get my work done. My living should be as I am dead, my soul being so free flowing without any attachment.
This is the poetic part of it.
In India people are bound by responsibilities , society , parental pressure , the need to be normal etc , and I see minimal or no scope for being oneself. I am driven to a point where a life without marriage is considered to be lifeless, shallow etc. So now attuned to all these circumstances, driving on a path to take someone along. Being Indian I should marry an Indian. But that Indian is not me, its just going to be other person who is stereotyped by above mentioned attributes. So almost every one “EXPECTS” their wives to be themselves as in to be bread winners, which is unfortunately against my philosophy, and what’s running in my mind is a bit cryptic to explain.No body is just willing to do what I want.
True love in my partner just leaves me the way I am and propels me to get and do what I want. Needless to say I am giving endlessly all what I have , no barriers. I am not the one who is money driven. I want to be in a place like Austria , the abode of nature, land of Mozart. Earning for a decent living again I mentioned above, should be driven by passion and talents , not being enforced to do what I don’t want. To be knit in a network that seamlessly blend with my energies and that knows no boundaries like me, friends who are full of warmth compassion , full of luster. Having all these positive energies enmeshed in me will motivate me to work for the betterment of myself, family and society . Energies play a major role in our lives , it can throw you up in the sky or bury you deep within.
I want to lead a good life for sure. Donno how am I going to supplement it. All that I can see around is very demanding, where you need play putting a mask and which I am not. I know the terrain ahead is rocky , but as a human being I want die and reach God. I don’t want a rebirth and this follows a vicious circle. You are happyß-à you get things when you are happy ß-à you attract positive things when you are happy ßàthere are no incomplete desires when you are happyß-à you travel the journey of life happily ßàyou die happily ßà No rebirth if you die happily.Yes I am strained of the thought that happiness is like a butterfly which can be pursued endlessly but to be savored momentarily ,but atleast for this I need a modicum of happiness. I am willing to take anything and every one that makes me happy.
This is the poetic part of it.
In India people are bound by responsibilities , society , parental pressure , the need to be normal etc , and I see minimal or no scope for being oneself. I am driven to a point where a life without marriage is considered to be lifeless, shallow etc. So now attuned to all these circumstances, driving on a path to take someone along. Being Indian I should marry an Indian. But that Indian is not me, its just going to be other person who is stereotyped by above mentioned attributes. So almost every one “EXPECTS” their wives to be themselves as in to be bread winners, which is unfortunately against my philosophy, and what’s running in my mind is a bit cryptic to explain.No body is just willing to do what I want.
True love in my partner just leaves me the way I am and propels me to get and do what I want. Needless to say I am giving endlessly all what I have , no barriers. I am not the one who is money driven. I want to be in a place like Austria , the abode of nature, land of Mozart. Earning for a decent living again I mentioned above, should be driven by passion and talents , not being enforced to do what I don’t want. To be knit in a network that seamlessly blend with my energies and that knows no boundaries like me, friends who are full of warmth compassion , full of luster. Having all these positive energies enmeshed in me will motivate me to work for the betterment of myself, family and society . Energies play a major role in our lives , it can throw you up in the sky or bury you deep within.
I want to lead a good life for sure. Donno how am I going to supplement it. All that I can see around is very demanding, where you need play putting a mask and which I am not. I know the terrain ahead is rocky , but as a human being I want die and reach God. I don’t want a rebirth and this follows a vicious circle. You are happyß-à you get things when you are happy ß-à you attract positive things when you are happy ßàthere are no incomplete desires when you are happyß-à you travel the journey of life happily ßàyou die happily ßà No rebirth if you die happily.Yes I am strained of the thought that happiness is like a butterfly which can be pursued endlessly but to be savored momentarily ,but atleast for this I need a modicum of happiness. I am willing to take anything and every one that makes me happy.
