Beloved Ashwin,
I understand the dynamics of the current world mandates us to be commercial in all our undertakings , right from choosing a career to lifestyle to everything in life. Yet I feel, my internal landscape is totally diverse from the external demand. I may have been raised in Bangalore, yet my genes lies in creative passion . I understand why throngs of professionals worldwide are veneering to higher professional courses to bolster their career growth , yet I am on totally different path. I don’t understand the undercurrent driving me for this action. For I have always believed that’s there is more to meet life than the professional demands, it will have to end somewhere. Well, even I divide my life into 3 quarters , I am skeptical will I have any verve to reach the pinnacle of creative satisfaction at the end of the 3rd quarter( 50 +). I am totally blued out as to how am I going to support you to mitigate the paramount demands of current culture from family standpoint. I am undergoing severe guilt pangs for not presenting you the exact picture before making a commitment, as I said the other day , I should have cogently stated what did establishment mean for me( I mentioned I am going to transition to the creative arena after attaining a level of establishment in my current professional career “ establishment made all the difference “). You would have moved on, probably to join a potential soul mate who would compliment professionally, personally and in all other aspects. Considering the other aspect, I am unsure if there is going to be an acceptance from your parents for this strive of mine.
I am unaware if I have dampened your dreams . Not sure Ashwin, nevertheless you have been your best for all these days . I do not want to override your happiness in anyways , I am stuck somewhere and this is looping subconsciously . I may have been nurtured to combat the challenges of world and to gain momentum as I traverse , yet there is this strong calling to meet my soul calling driven by nature. For all I know, you and me hail from a background where our lineage has a professional backing , and you are a man conscious to the societal structure, and my dreams are polar to those of yours and I know I am mystified in the affair between nature versus nurture.
Loving,
Summi.
I understand the dynamics of the current world mandates us to be commercial in all our undertakings , right from choosing a career to lifestyle to everything in life. Yet I feel, my internal landscape is totally diverse from the external demand. I may have been raised in Bangalore, yet my genes lies in creative passion . I understand why throngs of professionals worldwide are veneering to higher professional courses to bolster their career growth , yet I am on totally different path. I don’t understand the undercurrent driving me for this action. For I have always believed that’s there is more to meet life than the professional demands, it will have to end somewhere. Well, even I divide my life into 3 quarters , I am skeptical will I have any verve to reach the pinnacle of creative satisfaction at the end of the 3rd quarter( 50 +). I am totally blued out as to how am I going to support you to mitigate the paramount demands of current culture from family standpoint. I am undergoing severe guilt pangs for not presenting you the exact picture before making a commitment, as I said the other day , I should have cogently stated what did establishment mean for me( I mentioned I am going to transition to the creative arena after attaining a level of establishment in my current professional career “ establishment made all the difference “). You would have moved on, probably to join a potential soul mate who would compliment professionally, personally and in all other aspects. Considering the other aspect, I am unsure if there is going to be an acceptance from your parents for this strive of mine.
I am unaware if I have dampened your dreams . Not sure Ashwin, nevertheless you have been your best for all these days . I do not want to override your happiness in anyways , I am stuck somewhere and this is looping subconsciously . I may have been nurtured to combat the challenges of world and to gain momentum as I traverse , yet there is this strong calling to meet my soul calling driven by nature. For all I know, you and me hail from a background where our lineage has a professional backing , and you are a man conscious to the societal structure, and my dreams are polar to those of yours and I know I am mystified in the affair between nature versus nurture.
Loving,
Summi.
