My monkey mind is hovering between happy and sad states from morning , and acting really crazy . I am liking it though and looks like the affirmation of blogging daily is a great transformation within me , and one day I wish to be the best writer out there. I don’t mind my recognition , but just wanting to break my bench mark. Just tabbing across different screens and typing this, as in when there is unattended time when the server is booting or some thing J hehe funny me , funny servers. ….always been a hard core server service girl…hihiehehehuuiyiuiiu….servers ….the AMD and the Intel CPU’s….my kids…..LOL…just kidding…man I just cant afford to be serious always ya….I know when to ease it down,….just a min, will PASS this test….the Raritan is down appending few more minutes to the downtime. So life is just going on man. Just learning to be light within , cant promise to be self composed, but yes at least for the brain jogging , will write daily. Great thing. I hate piracy, I always praise anything in its rudimentary form , I just hate all those copy and paste stuff, and believe me even to reuse a word again in this blog is a bit of glitch to me. Sipping the coffee reminiscing good and bad memories of the past, having a sense of pride for having done something good, I can never think otherwise. Tomorrow is our celebration of 61st year of Indian Independence. The air is filled with fervor and patriotism , alas I am not exempted from punching in for work tomorrow. Not bad, my mind has gotten serious at work ,...the pace seems to be good. Lets see how far J….keep on my mindYou Know what , by this time , at my age , I wanted to achieve something tremendous and nerve cracking, I don’t know , this feeling of not having accomplished something is still triumphing in my mind.Achievement to me is definitely not the bank balance , but everyone these days are smitten by it. Something that is impacting to the impoverished sect of the society, and anything that’s surpassed my expected level of stimulations on any of the challenging planes. But yes, going forward will work personally toward certain initiatives to feel more connected for the meaningful part of life to serve the fellow human beings in whichever way possible, to the best of my ability. I must admit today, I have been selfish all these days, always inundated about thoughts for achieving self excellence, means to overcome these snobbish phobias impregnated deep , so hard. But yes, the time for translation to more meaningful realm has unfolded. At this juncture I pray the almighty with deepest feelings, from the depths of my heart to give me the energy, Its not about achievements …its about your face value with reference to the people whom I have guided and yes today I determine this is my motto. Its not about the age, its about the wisdom which serves the humanity. Its not about the wealth , its about the richness of a beautiful heat and mind with a purpose to serve the humanity. Its flowing from within, truly feeling so happy, I am at my best version today. God thanks so much, how could I ever thing of ending my soul and I had so much in store…I am sorry for myself. I have a golden heart , I always exude rays of warmth, goodwill ,compassion in its purest form. I truly thank god for this priceless intensity of my being to stand by the truth and to be fair in all means. Today its life is gleaming , may be to tell me its more meaningful than I thought. I must appreciate a substantial shift in the tone in which I started the first line and ending it with greater sense of purpose in life